First, good news-bad news. Justin's fever broke this evening (I think). And he seemed happy for the first time in two days. Bad news--he decided to make up for all the resting he did by being awake all evening until just recently (almost midnight!) But, good news-he was happy the whole time and just sat in bed with us!! It's good to see my good, fun baby back with us.
Second, when I started this post, it was meant as a rant of my bad attitude about being a mom and how hard it is and how many things I'm missing out on, but as I typed, I was reminded of how wonderful my day really was ... My mom-in-law called to ask me something while she and my other in-laws were on their way to Schlitterbaun (awesome water park!). Before I hung up I said "Have fun for me" and then realized how much I really meant that. As I stood in my front room, unshowered, holding a sick, sad, crying baby, trying to entertain a demanding toddler, I REALLY wished I could go to a water park. So many things I wish I could do, but can't because I've chosen to have kids. And I love them, but you sure do sacrifice a lot of things and lifestyles, at least in these young years. I know someday I'll be able to go to a waterpark again when my kids get older and enjoy myself and whatnot, but not today. Today, I stayed inside. I soothed my child. I played play-doh. I hid under my sheets giggling with my little girl. I cradled a child-providing comfort no one else can. I can't even list all the little, wonderful, beautiful things that happened today. All the magical moments. Hearing my toddler tell me she loves me (unprompted). Watching my husband play with our kids. It's a trade-off, but one I would never trade for a day at a waterpark. Those days will come, waterparks will wait. But, my kids are only small once.
2 comments:
You have a good attitude. I hope I can have that good attitude and perspective next time we have a baby. It's tough to be positive when you are sleep deprived and don't get enough time to yourself.
We sure miss you right now. Lizzie told me a few days ago, "I want to play with my friend, Lindsay." I'm glad they are close in age. I think they will have fun together at future cousins' camps.
How eloquent you are! You are showing a lot of maturity for a young mom. Believe me, you will truly treasure all those moments after your kids are grown and you will see how wise you were to be with them, providing love that no one else could possibly give.
We all miss you and your fun family and are looking forward to future CCs with your two. We're worn out from all the fun, but learning some lessons so things will be better and easier on people next time.
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